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I have a really bad memory but I remember so well when you got your ladybug for GP and SCMS edits, you had a Shaymin avatar back then I believe? I can't believe you are at 10k posts still going strong. Thanks for all the work you do!
Lest go on that 10k. You are strong and you'll make it through anything ur going thru. Never give up and keep it up. We love you here on smogon and there are people who love you in the real world. If you don't know someone that loves you, I love you. You're doing great buddy.